The two letter word that is one of the biggest theft of joy, one of the top tools of the adversary is…
Have you ever said to yourself, “If I would have done this”, or “if I would of done that”. Living a life of repeating the past in your mind of “could of, should of, would of” is a destructive self defeating practice. The past is gone. You cannot change the past, only try to learn from it. Conversely, being too preoccupied with worrying about tomorrow, next week, or next year… saying to yourself the “ifs”, such as, “what if I lose my job”, “what if a burglar comes to rob me when I am sleeping”, “what if I catch COVID19”… now I am not saying you should not fairly plan for the future, or be proactive, I am saying you should not worry to the point of fretting, or developing anxiety of the “ifs” of what could happen. I am saying to stop letting the “ifs” rob you of your joy, and the precious, priceless gift of the now.
Yesterday is gone, it is a cancelled check, tomorrow has not yet arrived, today is a gift, that is why it is called the Present.
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” — Matthew 6:25–34